i don’t think i’ve honestly missed anyone so much, as much as i miss you. All i’ve done is thought about you, and told myself everything will be okay, but it just won’t. how am i suppose to be with you when your away for such a long time? and your family hates me not to mention. I have no one to talk to about you, or tell how your such an amazing person. this fucking sucks, it really does. and it feels like i’m going to be stuck forever. )’:
So, let’s start out blunt. Have you had sex in the past month? yes.
In the past 48 hours have you been under the influence? no.
The last person to hurt you apologizes, do you accept? yes.
Do you tend to hold grudges? sometimes, yeah.
What do you hear right now? movie in the background.
What is bothering you right now? i feel very Nauseous.
What was your first thought when you woke up today? i don’t want to go to work.
Did you have a good weekend? it wasn’t horrible.
Do your friends usually come to you with problems? yess.
Is it easy to make you cry? not too easy, not too hard.
Stop the rumor or keep it going? stop it if i can.
Do you use the word like a lot when you talk? no, i hate that word.
Are there any movies coming out you wanna see? yupp.
Do you like to plan things out or just go with the flow? usually go with the flow.
Who was the last person you had a conversation with on the phone? babe<3
What did you eat today? i can’t even remember!=[
Last person you kissed calls you, what are they calling you for? To see what im doing.
Out of the following, what do you feel right now, angry/sad/happy? Mutual.
Have you ever broken someone’s heart? yes.
Ever liked someone else’s boyfriend/girlfriend? yes.
Have you ever kissed a brown hair, brown eyed person? yes.
Why are you doing this survey? because i’m so bored.
Do you pass out at the sight of blood? negative.
When you hear the name Rory, do you think of a boy or a girl? girl.
Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago? some.
Is there anyone you couldn’t live without? theres a bunch of people & my animals.
Looking back did you ever waste time on a certain boy or girl? yeahh, it happens.
Think back to September, were you in a relationship? negative.
What kind of shoes did you wear today? UGGS.
Do you currently have a hickey? nopee.
Whats on your mind right now? why my stomach hurts?
What did you do today? work, and walmart.
Is there a girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you? yupp.
Have you ever broken anything because you were mad? yeah, i’ve smashed a few cellphones.
Are you currently frustrated with a boy/girl? nooo<3
Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? definitely.
Would you rather marry Edward Cullen, or take a million dollars? million dollaas.
What color are your eyes? blueee<3
The boy/girl you truly care about needs you at 3 AM, would you go? most definitely.
How’s your heart lately? amazing<3
When was the last time you cried? last week?
Was someone disappointed in you recently? yeahhh.
Anyone you hate? yup lol.
Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you? probably, some people will never grow up.
Will this weekend be a good one? hopefully<3
Do you remember who you liked on Fourth of July? negative=[
When you’re really upset, what do you do? nothing reallyy. probably cry.
Graduated High School.
Kissed someone. Smoked cigarettes. Got so drunk you passed out. Rode every ride at an amusement park. Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone. Gone fishing. Watched four movies in one night. Gone long periods of time with out sleep. Lied to someone.not anything serious.
Failed a class. lolz, that’d be french at the moment. Smoked weed. <3
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
Watched someone die. rest in peace;mommy<3 ): Been to a funeral. Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced. they weren’t divorced; just split up. Cried yourself to sleep. Spent over $200 in one day. Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter. i let my feelings out in weird ways; (:
Been sailing. Cut yourself. Had a best friend. Lost someone you loved. Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Had detention. Skipped school. Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Gone to a different country. Dropped out of school. technically i didn’t, but then technically i did. LOL. Been in a mental hospital. i’ve gone in one, no; i wasn’t in it for myself. Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. Had an online diary. Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale. And a lemonade stand. Actually made money at the lemonade stand. Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to sea world. Attempted suicide.
Voted for American/Australian Idol.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Wondered about your sexuality.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had stitches. Taken a taxi. Seen the Washington Monument. Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight. Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.
Petted a wild animal. Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did “spirit day” at school. Dyed your hair. Got a tattoo. SOON! i now have two. Had something pierced. Got straight A’s. Been on the Honor Roll. Known someone with HIV or AIDS. Taken pictures with a webcam. Started a fire. Had a party while your parents weren’t home. Gotten caught having a party while they were gone
where are you when i need you? it’s getting to that point when i can’t breathe again; and im stuck in a world i can’t get out of. i need you more then anything right now, and your not here. I can’t even cry right now, tears fill my eyes but nothing rolls down my cheeks. I feel so lost, and insecure with myself because …of you. you made me like this, and i can’t even imagine what it’s going to be like in 3 days. i hate you for leaving all of us, but especially me and heather. The two lives that you created, and you pick up and leave. how could you be so selfish?i hate you for everything you’ve done, but all’s im dying to do is see you again. I was so proud of you, and even though you thought everyone looked at you wrong and how you messed up, what did it matter how they looked at you, when me and heather just looked up to you and put all your mistakes past the real you? I hate the fact that i can’t forgive you. I hate the fact that your not here with me and heather. And i Mostly hate the fact that you were so selfish and didn’t even bother to say goodbye.. you did this to me. remember that.
i love how famous you make me :D
im done withh all of you,
therefore im not talking to any of you at all ever again.
so- in result FUCKK OFF.
The reason im not in school, doesn’t concern you.
Instead of asking about me,
once again i will say.
ASK ME, INSTEAD of other people.
Stop making it such a big deal,
im sure you can find a way to contact me, so instead of talking about me, and making it a point to ask about me, just come to me.
it’s not that hard to ask a fucking question.
What are you talking about me saying things im not sure of?
im pretty positive i know what drama i have right now,
and something i don’t have and won’t have is drama with you.
I wasn’t saying shit about you, and i don’t have a problem with you.
But, what is it any of your business to say anything about what happened with me?
Me going away for a while, and coming back to drama is the truth.
And you haven’t done anything to me, at all.
And i apologize also. (:
go away and say they’ve had no drama where they are but when they get back there’s drama all the time. You can’t blame other people, it’s partly yourself for that one.
i didn’t say it wasn’t partly myself,
what i said was, that i think it’s pathetic that people can’t speak up and say what they have to say to me, rather then to my friends.
And yes, it is the truth that i left and now im back and there’s drama.
not one fucking soul said anything to me, when i was gone.
and now all the sudden, because i hung out with someone; there’s problems.
im not getting deffensive, but don’t write things when you don’t know what your talking about.
And stop talking about me, if you would like to say something..
just say it to me (: it’d be greatly appreciated.
Thank youu (:
So, im not fully back to Eldred but im getting there,
i had ABSOLUTELY NO DRAMA since i’ve been gone.
And now that im back, it all start’s again,
Well- let’s get something straight,
Instead of you talking about me, why don’t you just come up to me and simply say- Did you hang out with him?
I will be completely honest with everyone, yes i hung out with him.
Stop making it such a big deal.
Stop being so fucking dramatic, and over exaggerating about everything.
And just so you all know, i didn’t have sex with him either.
I Could careless of what you all are thinking of me for hanging out with someone.
But, You all have NO right to judge me for hanging out with someone.
So if anyone has anything to say to me, speak up and ask me, stop asking other people who talk to me.
fuck you matthew burns.
your a worthless scumbag, like please leave this town.
it’s a known fact that everyone hates you except for your girlfriend,
which i don’t even know why the fuck she’s dating you.
if you died tomorrow, i can honestly say i’d shrug my shoulders and walk away.